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Liberty Beckons Page 3


  Quarter moon - so bright

  during night walk with my dog

  full head clearing up.

  Gaining space for better view

  changes come by letting go.

  Fresh evening air -

  summer heat comes to an end

  changes touching me.

  Triggering questions and doubts

  longing for the key to life.

  Trees growing skywards

  without goal or desire

  abundant harvest.

  Why I am feeling empty

  when there's nothing to be filled?

  Wind is calming down

  leaving dust on fresh green leaves

  making them look old.

  No need to await next rain

  to grow and to be reborn.

  Under wide blue sky

  lonely hawk's soaring circles

  spot between horizons

  Walking in sunshine

  bright lighted hat holds head cool

  heart welcomes beauty

  Softly floating leaves –

  music from another sphere

  your eyes - sound of sparks

  Dark night - looking at stars

  I try to reach them.

  At least – with my heart and mind

 

 

  *Expressing one's existence*

  A creator's existence consist in his creation

  without manifesting himself he is pure being

  but not yet reflected through his revelation

  Lacking consciousness of his latent being

  the creator needs revealing to exist fully

  Light is not visible if it is not reflected

  empty space doesn't contain any light

  as source it can be seen in darkness

  but it needs someone who observes

  giving sight for light's full existence

  Light reflected through the observer

  watching what shows up within action

  becoming aware of causes and oneself

  recognizing the source of light within

  light is most essential to see - to grow

  Creation is reflected through all being

  from very basic level of manifestation

  Although consciousness is reflected light

  inbuilt evolution grows towards the whole

  needing conscious form to reach further steps

  Growing force is essential part of all duration

  a hidden longing to unite with the initial creator

  after a long dark way finally consciously reflected

  through the whole spectrum of growing human forms

  the One creator shows himself through his exposure

  All is expression of the One visible through creation

  with urge to express oneself - the way one is made

  calling for recognition of one's present existence

  being moved through a long road of evolution

  to meet with the creator by finding oneself

  Urge to express oneself finally vanishes

  as well seeking and search for sense

  expressing oneself by being alive

  responding by reflecting light

  mirror of creation in love

  My words are said

  as signs to meet

  like a smile

  floating

  in air

  O

  Redirected love ~

  encountering one's whole heart

  beam of vibrant light.

  Subjection of appearance

  dissolved into expression.

 

  Mind...

  Mind trip stays on top

  making best from nothingness

  perpetual sense.

  Thrown stone sinks into the lake

  no fear of touching deep ground.

  Mind's life jacket helps

  surviving in deep water

  before one can swim.

  Familiar elements

  will be one's friends forever.

  Being with good friends

  allows one's mutual trust

  floating without effort.

  Diving into being's depth -

  soaring high above dark clouds.

  World of certainty -

  illusions fading away

  grasping mind calms down.

  Understanding sinks deeper

  until rests within one's heart.

  Floating emptiness

  nothing hurts the observer

  calm within oneself.

  Pure awareness left over

  the point found one's center. Ah -

  Significant words

  established world pool of mind

  cool sufficiency.

  Is there space for smiling eyes

  pronouncing heart's existence?

 

  Open horizon

  watching quietly moving clouds

  a call sounds from within

  heart and head remain tranquil

  universe can wait a while

 

  Love Affairs in Virtual Cyber Space

  Love affairs boosting virtual Cyber space

  like multiple psycho paths on astral planes

  booming blown up high tech glamour of Internet.

  Nothingness filled with abundant bits and bytes

  Attraction-demanding sweet baits of promises

  pretension seems all to find self-confirmation.

  Attracting yearning souls, triggering response

  delusion of togetherness giving satisfaction

  exchange and sharing of pictures and dreams.

  Sophisticated seeking advanced fulfillment

  finding one's soul mate by surfing the Web

  reality reduced to screen sized spirituality.

  Exciting impulses flowing through fingertips

  manifesting all life's longing into mega bytes

  outlet for deluging emotions and thoughts.

  Protected by anonymity, self expression blooms

  limitless, without any need to be responsible

  or relating to what might be caused in space.

  Supported by millions of Cyber space surfers

  World Wide Webs are waiting to trap all being

  splitting life's wholeness into frozen bits & bytes.

  Spider webs might also trap some sparks of light

  reflected in tears of pain, not finding sense of life.

  Can sharing fantasies of joy fill one's empty heart?

  Protecting oneself from confrontation with people

  by escaping from encounter with one's daily reality

  into a world of virtual fiction - we become winners?

  Freezing dreams into CD and hard disk spaces

  transforming human beings into Cyber zombies

  sucked by limbo covering glamorous dates.

  Is there a way out of this golden Cyber cage?

  A way to find back to enjoy one's real sensations

  trusting, touching the ground - walking the talk.

  Although with all weight of suffering and pain

  finding one's way back to walk the milky way

  bridging distance between stars - hearts.

  Maybe the smile of a child given freely to us

  a rainbow between horizons - scream of a falcon

  will remind us from where true challenge is calling.

  To relate and respond from one's whole existence

  connected heart & mind, realized in daily happenings

  spreading out one's love & light - in this very moment.

  Transcended senses

  proof for extended being

  consciously observed.

  Morning mist - still floating

  joyful walk on e
arthen ground.

  Searching for new spaces

  Far voice sounding close

  bridging space's long distance

  words reaching to touch

  Walk through burning sun

  remembering cool rainfall

  still being thirsty

  Lost in common sense

  struggling through infatuations

  urge remains untouched

  Delightful sleep embraced

  dream world's moving space

  longing melts away

  Memory of presence

  open mind reflecting

  urging needs dissolved

  Clearness of emptiness

  answered doubts in silence

  colorful darkness

  Following one's

  security through habits

  shadows demand jump

  Lost out on a limb

  detecting one's heart beat

  compass to freedom

  Hope to hold one's sense

  though motivated to fight

  horizon stays far

 

  Flying still higher

  search for life's overview

  circling around oneself

  Common given goals

  tidy personal chaos

  no space left open

  Beyond noisy voices

  finally finding space less space

  stardust don't disturb

 

  Cold odd rainy day

  can't help it - feeling so good

  warmth from deep inside.

  Seagull's flight under dark clouds

  messenger of light beyond.

  No where to go

  Don't let us wear anymore

  worn out ruminated knowledge

  keeping us busy, comfortable and stuck.

  Let's drop rotten habits, old blinders

  attitudes belonging to yesterday.

  Let us walk through unknown fields

  enjoying space of fresh awareness

  no need knowing where to go

  arriving nowhere: now here

 

  Full moon, howling dogs

  lonesome mutual exchange

  communication

  What inhibits to live ´Spirituality´?

  With 'transformation' of one's personality starts spirituality

  being a 'living system', personality defends its existence

  resisting to everything, which is, not integrated part of it

  growing by gaining, being enriched, being confirmed.

  All established games serve to create our individual world

  finding ourselves reflected in everything around us

  opportunities to react with thoughts and all our feelings

  being identified - turning around and around ourselves.

  Sophisticated constructions of card houses for eternity

  personality is searching exclusively for satisfaction

  including all levels from deepest dark to highest skies

  spiritual concepts satisfying longing for ultimate security.

  Motivation is based on the hope to find final satisfaction

  longing that one's existence will last forever and ever

  yet still needing more - until been blown up to extremes

  ending up in frustration - falling into depriving emptiness.

  From far away there might appear a spark of light within

  turning all traps and attractive baits into shade less frames

  losing old boundaries, letting drop pseudo securities

  opening undiscovered space beyond known experiences.

  Entering fields of chaos, an undeclared guidance might appear

  allowing to respond in a fresh and undetermined way

  to whatever shows up without discrimination - quest of decision

  being responsible for one's actions - feeling compassion.

  Although one's life is still the center of one's being -

  reaching out includes giving oneself into the flowing stream

  receiving and giving out of abundance - no limits left.

  Surprisingly changing pain of unfulfilled needs into joy of being

  Who takes with quiet mood

  Vulcan’s spitting fire feelings?

  Sea waves carry foam

  Lost out on a limb

  detecting one's heart beat

  compass to freedom

  Feeling desperate -

  snoring dog beside my feet

  trust gives him peace

  Your questions subside

  music from within appears

  hear sound of silence

  Longing - Watching – Being

  Bursting heart's fullness

  swept into tender written words

  too fast - shallow voice

  pain - transformed - deepened scream

  expressed emptiness - longing

  Shallow voice vanished

  poet's subtle scream resounds

  triggering no echo

  silence floats into emptiness

  leaving me quietly watching

  Spirit's buoyancy

  guides me into emptiness

  watching existence

  long way gone - going beyond

  embracing joyful wholeness

  Transition completed

  watching from hurricane's eye

  off from world's whirlpool

  my long search comes to an end

  no words, no meaning - just being

  Rainstorm - old pine tree

  standing firm on earthen ground

  full heart - eaten out

  Far voice sounding close

  bridging long-distance space

  words reaching to touch

  Who is not afraid

  calling into empty space

  getting strange echoes?

  One's flight through firewalls

  heart carried in open hands

  seeker's walk on water

 

  L o s t

  Desperate feelings of being lost

  painful reflections without hope

  wherever I go or whatever I search for

  finally I am turned back to myself

  Be quiet - you’re desperate feeling to be lost

  results from being scattered in space

  wherever you are in this very moment

  the center of your existence is right here

  Why does my own presence weigh so much?

  Is it the history of accumulated experience?

  My holding on to worn out structures?

  I am tired of being blind from too much looking

  Breathing out of space-less presence

  long hidden answers arrive effortlessly

  using one's strength of distinguishing decision

  one's dispersing forces are centered

  Will I find a quiet space in this world of chaos?

  Fear of void is reaching out to swallow me

  again I am getting lost in endless thoughts

  finding myself out on a limb of vogue existence

  Existence breathes, listen, answers are there

  freely presented around and within ourselves

  you might go speeding for goals far ahead

  but for sure come back to the 'here' again

  My 'here' is covered with nervousness

  flashlights of impulses leaving me restless

  not knowing where to start and where to go

  I still feel stuck and lost in my own density

  Existence knows well where you are right now

  give allowance to be found by letting go of
search

  cramped by wishes coming out of one's narrowness

  old boundaries will melt into space beyond – go on

  Observing limits

  enveloped light of being

  trapped view - thoughts - instincts.

  I's dominating blind spot

  fits all into one's blindness.